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ealgyldenSo yeah, not dead yet. I was sick all last week, though not so much so as to feel justified in pulling the full Camille. Still, even your basic lying-around-with-no-energy-feeling-sorry-for-yourself sickness tends to exacerbate my natural tendencies toward being... reactive. High-strung. Occasionally whiny and/or bitchy ("occasionally?!" I hear Little Sister scoff a state away). Since I try to keep that part of my personality offline as much as possible, and rather than starting fights and clobbering innocent people with the Frying Pan of Death over things like differing views of a character, or enthusiasm (or lack thereof) for a particular pairing, I mostly took the week off. And wallowed in badfic. Specifically, Paris/Chakotay badfic. It's not like my brain was working so well anyway, so why not go all out? Deliberately seeking out this sort of thing is not so fun when it's a pairing I actually care about; the pain gets too distracting. But remove that element of, you know, real emotional investment, and it's like any trashy romance novel, only more so. Whee! But then every so often I'd trip over a story that wasn't bad, exactly, and it was quite disorienting. I kept wondering things like "why is no one crying yet?" or "why isn't Chakotay calling on his spirit guide every five minutes?" "Where's Tom's endless litany of tragedies?" "Why isn't Tom saying 'Gods!' constantly?" (and what the hell is up with that anyway?!) "Where's the big wedding scene with lyrics by Diane Warren and Indian customs by Pottery Barn?" It's unsettling to crave a Twinkie and find only madeleines on the plate, though in this case, it didn't happen often. And sure, it seems counterintuitive to complain about good stories, but hey, I was sick and I wanted my fun trashy, darn it! Tragically, I forgot that badfic is more addictive than heroin, and I don't have a stash of mediocre stories to help wean me off. Poor brain, I treat you so cruelly.
Did I have a point when I started? Um... was sick, wanted to start fights, didn't, read schlock instead... huh. Guess not. I did watch a lot of television while languishing, though, which will probably mean blather. And comments and email, of course, as always, still, yet. I'm the worst correspondent ever, honestly. Years, decades of extremely belated cards and letters under my belt, and these days I have all sorts of new formats and technologies in which to slack. Which is pretty much my history in general, actually. Time keeps marching on, bringing with it new toys to make me distracted and lazy. Stellar.
Anyway. I can never resist an icon meme, so I nicked one from![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
derryderrydown.
What is your default icon?
That's Shelly from the online comic "Scary Go Round," and she's my default because she's a pretty good approximation of what I look like. My hair is much longer and rather less RED! (it's just plain red), but other than that... close enough for government work.
Describe your very first icon (if you can remember it).
Oldest icon still in use?
Taking these two questions as a pair, because I actually still have in circulation two of the three icons I started with, lo, those many years ago (okay, two years ago). Théoden á la Hroðgar is unlikely to go away in the foreseeable future (it was my original default, even), because it's perfect for me in a whole herd of ways. And the Boromir one, well. It makes me giggle. Lots. Ayep, they stay.
Newest icon?
I just added these three last week (see? I did too accomplish something!) in one swell foop. Another Simon and another Zoe, because I'm predictable in my loves and they're just so damned pretty, BDM fears notwithstanding. And while I'm often not a fan of animated icons, I quite like this very subtle use of the technique. And one of Xena in Chin, because "The Debt" (both parts) is on my shortlist of favorite episodes (the sequels are okay, too), and I just thought it was a lovely shot. I have another terribly pretty Xena icon in hand, but I'm still pondering the "text or no text" issue. Such a tough decision! Heh.
Favourite icon you use but made by someone else?
Favourite icon you use made by you?
Taking these two together also, and then utterly failing to answer them- I love them all and I can't pick a favorite. Really. No decision-making skills, as I've so often demonstrated. All of my icons were made by others (all are credited in my keywords), for which I'm very grateful. The closest I've come to making my own is begging someone to create what I was picturing (which I'll need to do again if I decide about that Xena icon, come to think of it), plus a failed relationship with Photoshop. Things were said, choices were made, and there's no sense in revisiting that chapter of my life. The muse of icon-making hears me not.
Did I have a point when I started? Um... was sick, wanted to start fights, didn't, read schlock instead... huh. Guess not. I did watch a lot of television while languishing, though, which will probably mean blather. And comments and email, of course, as always, still, yet. I'm the worst correspondent ever, honestly. Years, decades of extremely belated cards and letters under my belt, and these days I have all sorts of new formats and technologies in which to slack. Which is pretty much my history in general, actually. Time keeps marching on, bringing with it new toys to make me distracted and lazy. Stellar.
Anyway. I can never resist an icon meme, so I nicked one from
derryderrydown. What is your default icon?
That's Shelly from the online comic "Scary Go Round," and she's my default because she's a pretty good approximation of what I look like. My hair is much longer and rather less RED! (it's just plain red), but other than that... close enough for government work.
Describe your very first icon (if you can remember it).
Oldest icon still in use?
Taking these two questions as a pair, because I actually still have in circulation two of the three icons I started with, lo, those many years ago (okay, two years ago). Théoden á la Hroðgar is unlikely to go away in the foreseeable future (it was my original default, even), because it's perfect for me in a whole herd of ways. And the Boromir one, well. It makes me giggle. Lots. Ayep, they stay.
Newest icon?
I just added these three last week (see? I did too accomplish something!) in one swell foop. Another Simon and another Zoe, because I'm predictable in my loves and they're just so damned pretty, BDM fears notwithstanding. And while I'm often not a fan of animated icons, I quite like this very subtle use of the technique. And one of Xena in Chin, because "The Debt" (both parts) is on my shortlist of favorite episodes (the sequels are okay, too), and I just thought it was a lovely shot. I have another terribly pretty Xena icon in hand, but I'm still pondering the "text or no text" issue. Such a tough decision! Heh.
Favourite icon you use but made by someone else?
Favourite icon you use made by you?
Taking these two together also, and then utterly failing to answer them- I love them all and I can't pick a favorite. Really. No decision-making skills, as I've so often demonstrated. All of my icons were made by others (all are credited in my keywords), for which I'm very grateful. The closest I've come to making my own is begging someone to create what I was picturing (which I'll need to do again if I decide about that Xena icon, come to think of it), plus a failed relationship with Photoshop. Things were said, choices were made, and there's no sense in revisiting that chapter of my life. The muse of icon-making hears me not.
